angst cycle (iii) — [Г] (iii)

in this state
poisoned
i can’t think straight

what would i think
were i not
subject to this
distress

well
when i’m not
i really
don’t want
to find myself here

that’s all i recollect
right now

would i keep chasing
despite the keep rejected

well
the guideline
is the law

stalking is
quite rightly wrong
and i’m not going there
rejected is rejected
move on
and that’s what i’m doing now
it’s horrible
but so is where i was before
that was worse
i’m slowly recovering
slowly slowly slowly
clouds of treacle
not air

i don’t understand
the always rejected
i really don’t