angst cycle (iii) — [Д] (ii)

i keep writing
and not sending
an ask for
recommunication

i can’t imagine
a positive
reply

i can’t see
where one would come from

she’s made
too many errors
i think

but
i’m not there
i don’t know
what might have changed

as i keep saying
as i still so strongly resent
i shouldn’t have been put
in this place

everything
everything
is wrong

my responsibility
is inattention
that of the householder
who didn’t expect
the vandal