angst cycle (iii) — [Д] (iii)

these days
have been
extremely hard

i’ve had an email
written sitting
waiting for me to press send
on and off
since last night

i’ev not pressed

the reason is
her loyalty
or lack of it

even if
and i know it’s an immense if
even if she switched
and came to me
i’d never have the confidence
she’d stay
i’d never trust
which would pretty well promise
the eventual collapse
so all i’d gain
is extra pain
it’s as simple as that rhyme

my difficulty to trust
go read the first angst cycle