angst cycle (iii) — [Д] (vi)

you know
i’ve been recollecting

although i’ve not been caught
like this
since youth

other women have made their move

i’ve rarely responded
i’m rather bad at noticing
consciously
which shames me

but other women have made their move
leaving me affection
a feeling that if we ever met
there’d be a smile

but i’ve not been caught
this case
her effort
admittedly
was stronger
longer

but she was attached
and when i responded
herself was shocked
at events

ach
go seen (ii)
that night is there
not the afterwards
the further weeks
when i closed down again
not liking finding
my affection
my response
was half–welcome

became presented
as a break
between
months with her partner

no
no
no
no
no

and now
no
no
no
no
no

the cut must hold