angst cycle (iii) — [Ж] (i)

i hope you’ll
can
reopen comms

once
i get
disaster under reasonable

up to you
clearly

things like the last
happened
few times
my 20s

not as bad then
as time now

might
be faded
perhaps repetition familiarity
easier predict control

surprised at again
wasn’t expecting
dropped

obvious
can’t handle
entice reject

still hope
each time
so far
recovered

warn
if express interest afterwards
do not reject
if i respond

direct route to hate
detest such cruelty
as victim

it happened
i did no nasty
because i walked away very