angst cycle (iii) — [Ф] (i)

scurry paris à londres
high speed
with a post–op hurting head
the fact that i keep on wanting to drink the water

these two months a été un disaster
only avoidable
had i
two years ago
been en garde

i will owe
a motorway
of apology

the motorway
of course
ends in one place

i still feel the tactics
to prevent a recurrence
are right

taking myself out
of the mating game
hasn’t worked

letting others
do the work
hasn’t worked
ho bloody ho

but my problem now
is junction one
the poison still wants
cut or completion

i reckon
two years
before it no longer cares