angst cycle (iii) — [Ш] (iii)

slotting out the poison cause
her careless selfishness
that caused me such intensity of pain
her lack of ethics her modicum of greed

is going to be difficult
but needed
it must be said
absolutely needed

since her decision to betray
just a promise nothing more
this has always been required
and known

and known

i’m not at that place yet
but what was an unpleasant bouldered path
has turned into a garden stroll
yes unkempt and brambles lacking blackberries

but i smell the scent of rose
and ahead i see a gate
the gate
maintained
waiting to be opened
onto the road
the place to take another way
a new journey

damn that betrayer
damn her promise
damn her refusal

such a waste