angst cycle (iii) — [б] (iv)

time to widen the lens
take a step back
i know now
there’s no chasm behind

her error
emotional thatcherism
mine was stupidity
i’d dropped my guard
she’d already admitted
snatching milk

the strategy of cut
is unpleasant and effective
it’s worked before
it’ll work again

but i have to hum another resonance
to turn to hunt
the second strategy of ignore
has failed
so badly
you saw the insanity

to hunt i have to hunger
to hunger i have to want
to want i have to taste
j’habite à côté de Pigalle …

a little satisfaction
the twinge of avenge
is knowing that she told me
she’s fallen for a children’s tale